A story of premature birth and the NICU roller coaster

CPR for infants and children

on October 28, 2012

This is the protocol for choking and infant/child CPR. I was recently certified in CPR for adults, infants and children. I hope to never have to use this knowledge. Obviously if it was needed I wouldn’t hesitate to use it. The question I have is for a baby aged 6 months what is the correct policy on CPR application? Is it what is outlined here in this website I attached? I ask because adult CPR was used on my 6 month old which most certainly caused irreversible damage internally. I know he could have died even if they used proper technique but I often wonder if the force applied brought him to death sooner than had they applied correct technique. My mind is wandering to what ifs once again. I keep promising myself I will stop doing this but it’s hard when I don’t have solid answers. I should mention some staff used the two finger technique after two rounds of CPR but by then it was too late. Also what I want to understand is why while he was on machines would he ever need CPR? I am reminded however after the hospital acquired blood infection he had that it led to sepsis and coma ,so I supposed since they didn’t treat this in a timely manner that caused the shut down of his organs. I am just frustrated that there were so many things that went wrong due to negligence or maybe ego in some cases. They told me more than once that children with developmental disabilities were not productive parts of society which I think is a horrible attitude or philosophy to have. They shouldn’t get to make Gods decisions. If he had developmental delays or hearing loss as was mentioned, then it wouldn’t stop me from continuing to love him and get him help he needed. I wouldn’t settle for those diagnosis I would push forward with therapies and anything else he needed to make him the best he could be. Should we write off people with disabilities? It begs the question of whether it was purely a medical concern on their part or maybe due to several mistakes or delays in treatment, they feared lawsuits. See, when a child survives these complications that my son experienced, then there are concrete issues that show up later in life that people sue over since they were hospital errors. When a baby dies they can cover all their mistakes and say you have to have known he was sick, he was premature etc. I have heard of cases where babies had worse issues that lived and there were babies in the NICU that died a few days after him that appeared to be going home just prior to an infection or other complications that seemed to pop up.The fact is they didn’t have his best interests at heart as far as I’m concerned, they had their agenda or cover our butts attitude. One lawyer declined the case stating that this stunk to high heaven and that it was an obvious cover up. Nobody will touch a case like this where records were doctored and death certificates were changed. It’s your word or bits of evidence against what’s on paper no matter how false or backwards it is. This may seem all over the place but if you read my previous posts you may get a better picture of how this all fits together.


5 responses to “CPR for infants and children

  1. mmmarzipan says:

    I am horrified at what you have been through and so, so sorry for your loss and all the bs you went through before and after 😦 I hope you are able to find peace with everything somehow, someday

  2. saifsmom2012 says:

    I hope so too. This blog is helping me to at least talk about different things that happened, part of the healing process I hope.

  3. mmmarzipan says:

    I almost burst into tears when I think about your story and what you have been through… I can only imagine how you feel. I really do think this blog will contribute to your healing and I wish you all the best on your journey. Please do let me know if you’d like me to contribute to a charitable cause in honour of Saif. There are quite a few that could be relevant and I am happy to research them if you don’t want to/don’t have the time or energy.

  4. saifsmom2012 says:

    If you have something in mind by all means let me know. I haven’t come across anything just yet. Thanks for your support.

  5. mmmarzipan says:

    Hi! I have found an organisation called Bliss that operates in the UK and does amazing work with preemies and supporting their families (during NICU days/beyond NICU/loss/grieving). You can actually set up a Precious Star Fund as a memorial and tribute for your baby (, meaning their legacy will live on and also give support to other preemies and their families. People can visit online and donate specifically to your fund, in honour of your baby and add messages of support and remembrance. I know you’ve said people in your life have found it difficult to talk to you about everything you’ve gone through, but maybe this will give them an easy way to express their support without getting uncomfortable about what to say and do? And perhaps open a door for further support and discussion? If you like the sound of this, please let me know if you would like to proceed with setting up a Precious Star Fund named after Saif. I will help you in whatever way I can, and also make the first contribution (we are not wealthy people by any means, so it will be a tiny fraction of what I’d like to give… but I’d truly like to give something!)

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