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A story of premature birth and the NICU roller coaster

on September 25, 2012

This brought me to tears. I think it has comforted me to know that no matter why or when your child is taken, the feelings I’m feeling are normal…..and that it’s never easy…it seems like you never get over it but I’m inspired to see that by having memories and carrying those with you ,even in the form of a simple orange chocolate, can give you …even if for a moment, comfort and a sense of your child being with you in spirit .

Grief: One Woman's Perspective

Have you ever purchased something almost as a way to give yourself permission to “live” in a memory for a while?

I kind of think that’s what I did last weekend.

Jason LOVED chocolate. Chocolate chip cookies (mixing, baking, and eating) and chocolate pudding pie with graham cracker crust were just a couple of his many favorites. One year for Jason’s birthday, we had chocolate cake with chocolate frosting, topped with triple chocolate ice cream and chocolate sauce. Did I mention he loved chocolate?

He also loved chocolate oranges.

I used to buy chocolate oranges once in a while as a special treat – to put in Christmas stockings, in Easter baskets, or just an “I’m thinking of you” time. I haven’t been able to buy them since Jason died. I just hurt too much.

There were lots of things I found that I couldn’t do any more after Jason…

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2 responses to “

  1. tersiaburger says:

    I don’t know if a parent can ever come to terms with the death of a child. My daughter is terminally ill and tonight she told me how worried she was about leaving me behind. Thinking of you!

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